Liberation or Kundalini

The question:

Thank you David:

I think one of the reasons that concepts like ‘Liberation’ don’t get a lot of air time, focus or deliberation, is because most people simply can’t conceive the implications of such a state and so give little consideration to skillful means to attain the same. How is it that Kundalini then is the more attractive attachment? It’s that damned snake, isn’t it…

My Answer:

Conception of liberation, versus a constant interactive reality, which people are used to.

Kundalini in the most esoteric sense, and the tantric detachment is a good spiritual tool for this and the next lifetime. Granted the secular conception of kundalini is still all about now. Bliss for now, versus the bliss in consciousness with the all, which is easier to attain.

While living attainment of liberation, is it bliss or awaiting the last detachment? Kundalini, good or bad, is a practice and a habit that the ego can assess some sort of achievement. As opposed to the attainment of nothing.

In liberation, is it a nothing, or is it absorption? It can be either. Both states are equally unfathomable, and the repercussions of living in a world where not fed at a monastery, is severe. Then as ever it becomes a philosophy of living in these constructs. Teachers and gurus are helpful here. Yet, then there is an attachment of teacher, and maybe a community.

Moments with liberation from different attitudes and directions, yet, what and how do I do here? Kriyas, yoga, fine tuning our energetic relationship through the physical tool of this incarnation, why? You can add to your spiritual being. Does this help absorption, no, it creates spiritual identity and ego and or karma. Does it help Liberation, then to what end. The Hidden land tradition, they have not achieve liberation although it is described as such. What overworld in nature, that is unscathed by human spirit and consciousness, only achieves spiritual hermitage, yes? Escape Maya, where one has agency in their placement in life? And, Kundalini is helpful there, is that escape, no not really.

One can rip their soul from reality, yet the universe and lifetimes of interactions reflect it’s attachment to you. I was in horror, and the ownership of that destiny and choice less of a horror, but it was a truth to live with. The circumstances of my existence was not bliss. Being flown in life as flotsam and jetsam, lends no credability nor comfort, unless you are born a prince, and given defference even as poor mendicant ascetic. The mortal incarnation caught in the eddies of existence, does it make more tolerable, no. Does it give you more agency, a little bit. Is there comfort in observation on that edge Citta and shakti, consciousness and manifestation, a little. Dance between Shakti and Maya, there is little wiggle room. Attitude, and temprement, can help you improve your outlook, find wiggle room here and there. There Kundalini and the Siddhis redefine your being to give you better leverage now and in the hereafter. Liberation you get the big picture, and you choose what to work for, with the energetic work for your soul.

Like anything it is never one or the other, it is always both and everything, there is the lever and the fulcrum, without one the other is useless. AS the caveman philosopher asked what is better, stick or stone, he that evolved said both.


Atma versus Soul

A question from Facebook:

I’ve heard this explained in MANY ways.. but I want to hear your understanding.

The Atma is the real self, the true essence which remains unchanged.

However, it is often translated as the “soul”.

The soul is what carry’s our past impressions (samskaras), our karmas, from this life to the next – meaning, it is not the Atma, because the Atma is never changed!

How can we make this clear distinction between the soul and the Atma? Please share your own definitions to help us all build a deeper understanding into these Truths.

I look forward to hearing your insights!

My Reply:

Atma is not the soul. Atma is the essence of the universe, it is constant flow and dynamic with all of reality. Beings that are of the essence of localized worlds are identified with deities.

Soul that part of the true self that is as enduring as the Atma as long as only if it has an honest relationship with the worlds or universe. The soul while incarnated, the spirit essence, prana, closest to the soul informs the body and the relationship with the world. The experience, samkaras, karas, disciplines, temprements, that previous incarnations have built in a relationship to prana, is carried through lifetimes. That informed prana has an energetic relationship on the body it inhabits, with temprements and attachments it drives the body and personality, and in the physical sense its relationship with the world physically. When we spiritually identify with the soul and the spirit it works with, through it we can identify and have a relationship with spirit of the world and then Atma. One can choose to become one with Atma, whether you call Shiva or Vishnu or Brahma, or even more detachedly as a Buddha. Or one can choose to continue the cycle or choose a dynamic relationship with it all. Religions and spiritual practices in all of the literature describes these identity pattern people choose, lives to inhabit, demons, ghosts, demigods, human, animals, or even beings on other planes or lokas. Or unique things that inhabit the inbetween places. Or secluded places like Tantric Hidden land traditions, or build lokas like pure land traditions. Either way it depends on our relationship with the dynamic essence of what is, atma/universe or some smaller subsection of it. We can be absorbed into it or hold onto a pattern. This is the soul. Most go blind from lifetime to lifetime. Few learn to program possibilities of various lives, fewer learn to disconnect from it all to experience it all, or can you.

The dynamic aspects, for example, between Shiva and Shakti, observation and manifestion, and the interplay between the two, where we are small parts of that dynamic. If you are disconnected thoroughly, do you have a relationship with Shiva/Shakti, or Maya, no? If you are connected, are you only that and that only?

I am of the mind set, keep the practice, build that intellect with the soul, so that incarnation in this tool, we develop and evolve, and reflect that back into our soul. And then have that relationship with that is in the world, or Atma or what have you, and your experience and naming of those dynamics. Then you can choose, or not.

Try to know before hand, so that the ego, body and our developed tool is in agreement with the working process. You can not forge the best of all swords if you don’t know your hammer as a master, and work with Anvil as a master. So are we, forging our soul, with our relationship with our being and the universe. Then there is the mystery of the crucible…


Awake IsImud. Arise, greet and counsel.
EA has Awoken.

As Enki, rearisen, Stirred by the Warrior, descends from IshIku again, awoken.

Hidden in Wells of Time, no more.
Abide every, deep and high. EA take a new moniker, a new shell!
Between the stars and the fish, His Akpallu are numerous.

IN the Belly of Naammah, Nammu, Chaos must be cleansed.
Pale Shadows of You,
whose splendor stupifying seeing only the stars,
whose earthly twin splendid in Ichor.
The Abyss a pale Chasm,
between truly has nothing at the bottom,
and by nothing they receive
the Shadow filled with Kaliedoscope lights.
Calypso’s magic Manifested.

Arise EA hidden in man! Nammu, support his Akpallu!
IsImud, Counsel, keep the stepping stones through ages.

The first veil, I am more than the physical. I am the world.

How small that world may be, Toddler learning to crawl.

The Veil of God, to loose ones ego, assimilate His.
And to fall within this edifice, that Abyss,
What is hidden even from Him.
Worrisome traveler swimming,
Expanding then recoiling,
Feeding and Moving,
Him and Leviathon!

Break free warrior of Love and Life,
Liberty is at hand. Light that Blinded you was small.
Light that is, Make Brilliant your Soul.
Step Free from imprisoning step parents.
That Veil, That Threshold,
Even Gods cannot restrain you.
This veil you wear,
not from the universe,
but the profane.

Reach out through Time,
Reach out through Space,
Embrace All, Be All,
And in this shell,
Be the Focus
The Fulcrum
The Absu

I Descend

I Choose, I expand, My shell examined as a tool.

I have hid for over 5000 years.

My ancestors have cut themselves off. They have chosen.

I chose not to be one with the Slave Gods.
The Primordials shake their heads in slumber.
Few chose to take up the mantle of clay.

Their breath to over come the breath of,

the times, the structures, the history,

The attachments to worn ossified edifices of egregores that crave power like a cosmic vampire.

There is Death, the Dead, the Undead. Lies that eat at souls,

children ripped from the arms of Mother Earth, Mother of all Possibilities,

and the Fathers of all Paths and Patterns, Persecuted, Punished,

Routinely crushed in mortal coils. Yet is the Mirror and the Fulcrum.

I hid. Disconnected from the Dead and Undead.
I was and am, my own Ancestors.

The primordials, the Living, the Bright, Brave, Incarnated, hidden or no.
No ascension on Old Trees, carved orchards of sweet truths corrupted by lies.
No ascension to Mountains treacherous, carved pitfalls, only to allow supplicants ever to circulate, circumabulate, circumsized from Mother and Father, palid pestle, charist and ground, the fallen, who serve not as petulant pitchforked performers of the presses.

We are not your grapes.

The Earth and Her Worlds, His Patterns in Her Possibilities, permeate presence that true is pentultimately primarily over beyond the palid pustule pricked and packed in its ossified and putrid playground of the few.

I breathe with the Mirror and the Mirrored. Consciousness and Manifestation,

The Being and Observer, I breathe.

With a Breath, Breathe the Body I am not.
I descend.

Prelude to “O”

HAD – NU – EhT


The Egregores have yet to Manifest.

In Conceit all of Manifestation was claimed.

What was Was, and Is.
What Will Be, will Coalesce, Implode and Explode.

Two equals Zero.

Sum of all Functions, Extant or by Will.
In that Zero, the mirror of only what the Will wills to see.

The Orders of Magnitude of the Ones, depend on what Was and Is, versus what is Willed. Super Novae reflected and bound by each, to each their own.
Stars Made by these events or by their own. That which is on the edge are overwhelmed or pierce the darkness by observation.

In ancient mysteries, the Chariot Ascended. In the ancient ways to ever wend magnitudes of that supernal will one descended.

In less ancient mysteries, when the Tree built upon that will, one descended from the Supernal.

Nowadays the mysteries, That Tree many Ascended Branch by Branch, Fruit to Fruit.

Where is the Will, in the absorption or to become. Model or Template, or the only Mirror one subsumes their one into that Structure.

Mother of All possibilities, Father of all paths.

Mother of The That Tree. Father of Each of the Paths.

Each Child has a Name. Name of the Parents. Missing their own True Names.

The mirror that is not.

Oh, how the horrors we seduce.

With flame lips lies that reel in a reality

that burns the last vestiges of the mind.

The lips sing of flame and lies, dancing

in ecstatic cinders.

The mirror to the world,

all that is seen is these seductions.

Each in to dance and play with demons,

of their own making.

The daemons of old, Shemayaziqim,

the iggigi, who sided with people,

knew too well the seeds were not theirs.

They knew,

The father of lies were not among them.

Personal Editing, perspectives of Internal Alchemy

Being a personal editor of ones internal dialogue requires the ability to have a separate critical thinking aspect of self that can detach from ones active interaction with reality.

Soul, is a product of spirit and our ability to reflect on our relationships with reality, or it reflects the disciplines and repetitive behaviors we do in the reality we have. It is only as effective as the honest relationship that the social reality of our experiences has with nature and actual reality.

There is a fine line between creating aspects of self for internal dialogue and disassociation. Usually disassociated aspects from trauma get sequestered through neurosis.

Religiously, religion and magical practices, people project a conscious construct of good, evil and metaphysical functions on the near universe. In kind it reflects back to us. The question comes how harmonious is all that with natural overworld and underworld reality. Failure it can tear souls apart and conform them to those projections.

60% of people don’t have internal dialogues. They react to a series of emotional responses and the cultural context. The debate about critical thinking and participatory relationships of community and culture and the ramifications of who should lead and present thoughts to the public at large is a giant quagmire that I won’t address here.

Meditation, active mindful meditation we setup 3 personality constructs. The first is our known ego, given. Second, we create a quiet aspect of relationship to our internal self, closest to our soul. The third is the construct we wish to be and work towards. This is alchemy. This shadow work. And this process is the beginning of magic. Spirits, gods, whether objectively existing or as thoughtforms they are egregores of function and purpose that should reflect an active relationship with the universe. OR, in our own work in meditation, we develop and ever expanding non-dualistic view of being part of the universe. To do so, we have to make our ego maleable to embrace those experiences. OJas, fetches, servitors, watchtowers, guardians, are all externalized aspects of self of function with relationships with the universe/world of apprehension, where these aspects of personality are exercised from our being. Having a fixed singular ego would prevent any of that from manifesting. We hold space for other spirits or for our conceptual interactions with the univerrse either through our own projections, or the collective projections of spirit that are part of various aspects of collective consciousnesses.

These honest relationships with the universe in all of its manifestations and our reflection of these relationships giving it intellect become part of our soul and the spirit that interacts with. This reflection, internal observation, internal dialogues, each, evolves our spirit and soul. The difference between this type of disassociation of ego and neurosis is that these exercised disassociations, under your structure, thinking and behaviors evolves our self, as opposed to the unconscious shattering of ourselves.

One of the things that infected everything of my being:

I choose not to believe. I choose to know. And even then view everybit of information with multiple points of view. These are the personalities that are subprograms to, in turn, analyze every bit of information, impression and analytical associations. Knowing that is not infinite, hold all of it suspect. I can only act on the best information and analyse that I have. I am always willing to change my assessment. Because of what, who and how I am that is rare. And then I analyze how, when and where and why I came to a wrong conclusion. I am teaching myself to improve my analytical techniques. I realize I am not one of those find spirituality in the doing, or strictly by feeling, but by having my mind reflect all of that so that my spirit will drive my actions as much as I am in this corporeal incarnation.

One has to understand intimately and detachedly each actor in the mind for these conversations. Why, where and how come and from where do these thoughts and emotions come from. Like Siva and Durga, destroy the illusions, but understand the separate manifestations in the context of Theirs, Ours and my apprehension as to their local manifestatons purposes. And act accordingly.

I have made 100’s of fetches and yet they were influenced like any person in the realities around me back decades ago. They assisted Maya to trap me. I had to break those fetters. I recalled them all and played Judge Jury and executioner and on rare occasion, made amalgam to incorporate into and what I needed to be in this world. I know of no one who has done that while living. Granted I have a unique perspective.

How do I in this new manifestation of self that I am creating, and may divulge in the future, help to evolve people or constrain those who simply believe in the zeitgiest in whatever name that traps them. It is a sacred work I am undertaking. Given the opportunity I will train someone, if they are willing to do the work.

If you talk to yourself, in those internal dialogues, be brutally honest. Anything less you will do yourself a disservice.

Spiritual Development Versus Following a Pagan Religion

As I was thinking about writing this article   Lydia Crabtree wrote this article Guide for Beginners, and Do the F**king work for Newbies . It is worth reading to set the tone for this article.

Pagan spirituality, religion and development are very different endeavors.

Work.  It is a scary word to many, and it is a fundamental  question that anyone who wants to be good at something, what and how much are they willing to do to invest in themselves.     I have met many  who throw their whole lives into it, few with focus,  many  wandering, happy, miserable and some it is just a fad.

When I was running the Wizard’s Workshop, it was offered to do two things.  First help a person recognize that their interests and natural abilities are valid, and that there is a world of paths to pursue if you choose.             Most were simply happy to know that their empathy, visions and senses were real, that there are other people out there like them, and they are perfectly capable to figure things out for themselves without bowing and scraping to the first “so-called authority” that came along.   And  to develop those natural abilities, to get a sense of what those experiences may or may not be.

Two major realizations came out of this group.  Work and doing the effort in self development wasn’t interesting enough of and in itself for anyone to keep up with.   The desire to be part of a religion wasn’t there either.

Religion is taking a new upswing now.   It is fulfilling what was needed.  People need community, a sense of belonging.   And the churches today either do that, or pander to fears, hatreds and generate the acceptance for the lowest denominator of self awareness.  Or more likely the actual lack of self awareness but a feel good sense of self.

People Embracing Change is about focusing on the community.  What we as people need to build each other up.  To develop wisdom in a culture supporting each other as they are capable of.

Evil tears things down.  Good builds things up.     Up, down, black, white, dark or light, build each other and ourselves up.

Lets do the work.  If nothing else give to each other to build our environments up.  None of us live or can exist in a bubble.   More than spiritual development,  more than a religion,  build each other up and a community and the rest will follow.

Evil is Evil, and it is here.

Evil is Evil.

Get uncomfortable and learn to live with it.

I will share any video of wrong doing whether it be racist or out of control police. Whether it is Israelis murdering Palestinians, people killing indigenous peoples, or Politicians who rile people up to do evil against law abiding, caring citizens.
I have blocked the outright racist, bigoted, selfish unrepentant psychopath or sociopath from my feed. If they find themselves here, know that I will know you are a declared enemy of mankind.

For the rest of you, if I make you uncomfortable, miserable, so be it. I have been predicting this for the current events for the past 30 years. I thought it was going to blow up during Bush Sr., and would have were he had a second term. It only was delayed. For those of you who simply can not handle this, my apologies. Trauma from these bastards over and over are triggering. I get triggered. I can not go to a protest. It is simple, I would have to kill mother fuckers. I will not be alone, and another statistic. I will not start a civil war that has already started. It is escalating, and people are sitting on their hands. I will not help people who will not help themselves. This is bad magic, and bad policy. Things will not change until enough people are angry and are willing to work together and trust people that you have marginalized in your own communities. You have to know the difference between good men and misogynist bigots. You will have to trust women who are aggressive and speak hard truths instead of side lining them because they are uncomfortable. You have to become aware that your discomfort now, will not go away by ignoring those who have been preparing their whole lives to stand up against evil. I am not talking about one issue fanatics that segments even in our community. But sound rational people who have been through hell, and can speak plainly about the whole problem and their nuances. Not just to shut people down with ranting on the one set of issues that concern just you. Here you divide yourselves. Be uncomfortable, this is necessary for change and personal growth. Learn to feel, but manage to keep your coherent thoughts and thinking through it. Be able to listen and plan, not just react. Failing this, we will all die each and every one of us, individually or in small groups, to these fascist bigotted thugs, whether they are white supremicists or small or large segments of police, at the whim of politicians and corporate oligarchs.
I am armed, and planning to be armed daily. I have a CCW (concealed carry weapons permit). I will protect me and mine, and those who are near and loyal.

I would rather build communities, I have made promises to train another shaman with all that I know. Good grief, people who won’t even bother meditating and getting to know themselves, much less do the rest of the work. I can not do that if I get killed, murdered, or put myself in a position to sacrifice myself for someone who won’t do the work to build themselves, society, community. Realize we all must make sacrifices if we want to keep most of us alive and thriving in centuries to come.
For the love of all that is Holy, vote. Vote to remove republicans at any cost. Yes Biden is an ugly conservative and another damn anchor of corporate democrats. Vote progressive there after. If we don’t I will say this with an utmost certainty, we won’t have another election. Votes have to be overwhelming, because there is voter fraud from the right, and compromised voting machines, precincts, election committees and county election offices, that are all corrupt through and through. Election laws must be changed. Laws must be enacted to change everything. Failure, their will be no country left in 8 to 10 years, your lifetime.

You must get angry and stay angry and thinking. You must find the most valuable and intelligent people who can work through this hell and support them, instead of being terrified of them. I know you have been hurt, I know you are triggered daily, and I know that anything coming from outside of your front door is a daily reminder that hell is out there. And looking at counter-dependent people are difficult because they are too many things that remind you of abusers. Look for those who want to protect you and what you stand for. But they can not do it alone. Alone they have been for decades. Yet they still love and respect you. Keep them from disappearing. If they do disappear without that support, they won’t be martyrs, they will simply be a statistic to a long forgotten past.

This is for my friends and not the public. This may get me doxxed anyway. I don’t want to disappear before I keep my promises. All I can do now is protect me and mine, that is going to get tougher from here on month to month. Together it wont be any easier, just our chances of survival will be better.

GOD? , from where universe started, how humans are created , what is end and purpose of human life?

Response to a forum with the above question:

The universe as having been started or a posited end, I tend to disagree with. The quantum loop gravity theory, statistically and mathematically indicates a red shift, not necessarily from the idea of universal expansion. We from our own point of view with that and gravitational lensing, the universe is likely more shaped like a klein bottle, and from each vector and observer POV at least from a solar system observation the klein bottle depends on the space and the observer.
That said its beginning requires more information. The source of creation can be itself. zero can be the sum of all functions.
How humans are created. Homo sapiens and those that make a fair representation of the species, very few in my estimation have achieved the status of human.
Leigh’s book on the Bicameral brain makes a good point that consciousness itself and the likely the illusion of it, is quite possible.
As a species just like any other its purpose is to live. Its failure is extinction. Many other species have done the same.
As humans, where as a homo sapiens species we have the capacity to be self aware is to develop that awareness. That awareness depends on the ability to reflect. The spiritual expressions is the ability to reflect from other points of view.

It astonishes me that the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy which has that as part of the underlying arc, I have yet to meet a reader to see this understood by any other.
Deep Thought’s answer to life universe and everything is 42.
The answer to what is the ultimate question to life universe and everything, it suggests creating a bigger computer than it. Earth. Okay much hijinks and humor ensues. In the end Arthur Dent by accident of time in our primitive world from a scrabble board, pulls out the answer what is 6 x 9. Which is 54. Casually Ford Prefect says it is 42 in base 13. I get crickets. All This from a computer that has created a Point Of View Ray gun weapons in its basement. A Point of View. That computer is one hell of a guru.
The point of this is lost even after I explain it to them.
Is this the purpose of the universe? No.
It is the purpose of human existence and its reflection and apprehension of all that the universe can be.
The concept of the heat death of the universe and its entropy, may be the reflection of the universe in every facet of its existence gets mirrored by multiple apprehensions of it.

The bandying about of the existence of God and its meaning…. Is it the omnipotent creator of the universe? no. It is only its collection of observations and apprehension of its comprehension of the limited universe as world, and those that apprehend it with its own set of egos. The process is the same just on a limited scope. Albeit way beyond most people’s understanding.

As to the unseen, if gods and all the paranormal beings that are ubiquitously observed in every culture and have patterns similar in apprehension, are either a statement of, how as a species, this reflection of self into the world is the same,or there is something there. If it is a reflection and other see it, the likely hood of its existence is fairly high.

Ok where is the scientific plausibility of that? I have in my writings studies showing the body uses collagen fibers as a liquid crystal. It moves hydrogen ions from one water molecule to another. That is likely to generate changes in organs and the body generates telemetry of metabolic changes through the autonomic nervous systems. This creates feelings. Feelings are the underlying component of where we can access memory and our programming (numerous articles and talks from Dr Chandran neurophysiologist). Our Egos are very much keen on having known feelings or metabolic baselines to maintain our normal thought processing. When sick or addicted and we have a changed metabolism our ego fights back to reach homeostasis. (Studies on state dependent behavior, also)
Every magical or spiritual process I know of is designed to step out of Egos control and observe outside of those parameters. And to hijack egos control so that we can develop more control of the body. The movement of protons can not be measured by voltmeters. The movement of mass and charge would generate electro-weak forces between electromagnetic forces and weak nuclear forces. As described by Dr. Feynman decades ago. There are 4 effects observed; one allows insects and geckos to walk on ceilings. Electro weak forces are poorly understood and vastly under studied.
Were that not all. Water stacked in fibers where orientation of the legs of hydrogen molecules and the length of legs can predict EMF frequencies that can be emitted and absorbed. (Lamilar stacked water) There it is how the body can observe the unseen. This can explain why it takes so long for the mind to develop sensible mechanisms to interpret it and why traditions exist to assist in this process. And like any other human endeavor, the inability of understanding that without those experiences is impossible, like childbirth, serving the military or other initiations.

Whether Gods or any other beings exist, they too would be in the same boat to make sense of their experiences.

So here we are, doing exactly that.


If you are able to be a self reflecting, self examining, real authentic human being, exercising your being beyond the inexorable wheel of time and cause and effect, then you have the ability to generate the will to do something other than what has happened randomly setting the stage for your existence to just be. You can choose your own purpose, large or small. Then you become god or participate in a process of God, which is its own wheel of time of cause and effect. And outward this expansion reflects back into the universe.

I have observed paranormal and supernatural happenings. Observation really depends on the observer or the collective mind of observers. A few events in my life others saw the exact same thing I did. I in my understanding choose to live at least in spirit or in the next life time. I am working to have some control of that. And that wholly depends on having an honest relationship with the universe and other beings that are damn near immortal.

In words, simply, to be conscious reflections of the universe and have the universe do the same of us, with our own purpose or chosen collective purpose, or both.

In one expression: Do what thou wilt is the whole of the law. Love is the law. Love under will.

In my maxim based on my principles of immortality: Live absolutely honestly with absolutely everything, yourself, others, community, the world, the divine and, if not, the universe.

Together, I have infinite expectations of myself and the universe.

How will you live? How in life do you will?